Sunday 18 August 2013

My Relationship♥

I don't really know where to start, Yes I'm only 16 and people say I'm young I don't know what love is but I beg to differ, they also say there will be plenty of boys to come and I wont be with my boyfriend forever but I really don't agree. I'm head over heels in love. Soppy I know.

His names Sam and we've been together a year and two months now. I'm not going to lie being in a relationship hasn't come without its difficulties and these difficulties aren't even between me and Sam. The friends I did have just disappeared when I got a boyfriend and tbh I don't really know why. One day I'm out with them every day and the next I'm not being invited anywhere. They thought I wasn't interested and wanted to spend all my time with Sam, they didn't even try to contact me or ask me if I wanted to go out. Its came to a point where I'm only ever seeing Sam and I have not one friend. This doesn't really bother me most of the time cause Sam's my favourite person in the whole world and I want to be with him all the time. But sometimes I get so lonely and just need friends and girly advice and I have none.

On the 1st of July 2013 me and Sam had our year anniversary we went up London and went to all these fun places and had a really cute day. We run around all the museum's and spent pretty much the whole day laughing and being really cute to each other. We ended up in MacDonald's romantic I know haha. He got me an incredible present that means everything to me and I love so much. He got me a promise ring and promised to be with me forever. I wasn't expecting such an amazing present.

We always have these cute little debates about how many children we want and what we want to call them. We're always talking/planning our future and its really sweet. I want 5 children 3 boys and 2 girls and Sam wants 4 children 2 boys and 2 girls. He hates every name I've ever suggested and thinks that the children would get bullied for having such weird names. We came to an agreement the other day we're going to have 4 children 2 boys and 2 girls and we got to choose a boy and girl name each. We settled on Harley, Cody, Isabella and Dillion-Rose. Ill end up having my 3rd boy in there one day, I always get my own way haha.

In ten years time I see me and Sam living on our own with our first child, preferably a boy 2 years old . We'll both be working as teachers, me a primary school teacher and him a p.e teacher in a high school. I also see me pregnant with our second child which will hopefully be a girl. We'll have two dogs one Dalmatian and a small dog of some kind. I hope we would have moved out of the area we live in to some where nicer and a lot quieter.

Sam is probably the sweetest, funniest person I've ever met in my life and I'm so glad I was fortunate  enough to meet him. He's changed my life for the better, I'm genuinely happy the majority of the time, a lot more than I ever used to be. He makes me laugh and smile whenever I'm with him, he's the best thing that's ever happened to me and I've never felt like this about anyone in my life. He listens to me and understands me. He knows the real me, the weird crazy person I really am and still loves me. He's so sweet and treats me like a princess.






 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Im not saying our relationship is perfect cause its far from it, but he's perfect and I really do love him. Samuel if your reading this right now, I love you so much and thank you for being the best boyfriend a girl could ask for. Your always therefore me and cheer me up and I appreciate everything you do for me. I'm glad were so confident around each other and aren't embarrassed to be ourselves. 

                                               Courtney x
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Thursday 15 August 2013

My prom experience .

So..Last month on the 5th of July I got to attend every teenage girls dream. Prom. But much to my disappointment it did not live up to my expectations. I spent the majority of the night surrounded by people I didn't even talk to, old friends and many people who have an unexplained disliking for me. Which made me extremely uncomfortable, I felt like such an outcast. Everyone had there own set friendship group and there was just me, alone like always. This plus my slight social anxiety made my night even worse, the thought of being around so many people terrified me anyway but being an outcast and a loner made this 100x worse. Plus everyone wanted to talk to me? Which was very strange seems as nobody ever bothered before so why now, on the last time I'm ever going to see them?.. I felt extremely insecure throughout the night, everyone looked incredible and I felt disgusting I just wanted to go home.


However, I did get to attend the night with someone very special to me, My boyfriend. For a couple like me and Sam prom was very traditional.. His tie matched my dress, he picked me up and gave me a beautiful corsage and we travelled together. I spend pretty much the whole night together, we were even the runner ups for Prom King and Queen. The highlight of my night was dancing with my boyfriend on the dance floor, we was surrounded by so many people, 50 to 80 people atleast but I felt like we were alone, just enjoying each others company like we always do. This put me at ease and I started to enjoy the night a little bit more.

 
 
 
 

All in all I am very pleased that I attended Prom, As it is a special and momentous time that every girl should remember good or bad. I just wanted a prom story I could share with my children one day, good or bad. I wish it could have gone a lot better and I wish I could have enjoyed it more and had the typical prom experience but it is what it is. I would like to thank the few people who made prom special for me, your amazing and I love you.

                                                             Courtney x

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